Suffocation Mood: Victimised Listening to: Bring Me The Horizoni hate school. now more then ever. I'm suffocating in all the bad things that are going on right now. i just cant take it. the whole day i was told that no one likes me by this utter fuckwit [Bobby.. haha!] i know that's not true and everything but with everything else going on, its just making it worse. no one around me knows the full extent of whats wrong, and neither do i to be honest. all my friends have their own issues, Lilly with losing herself, Luna with going generally insane after her break up with Lloyd where shes depressed and then hyper and Tazz having a boyfriend who disappears all the time and has a psycho ex boyfriend who looks like a pixie. I'm serious. it all wouldn't have affected me as much if it all didn't happen in one go. people are now turning against me because of my ex. apparently I'm the bitch. pfft as if! I'm trying to defend myself. none of these people know about my uncle john or the full impact this has all had on me. i swore to myself that I'd never cut, but I'm attempting it. blunt knife and not pressing hard enough. i have a weird issue with deep cuts, that's why I'm attempting this slowly. i only feel safe in my head. when someone attempts communication, i have to leave the only place i feel safe. i just need a safety net that i lost a while ago. i want an easy challenge, new people to me are an easy challenge. i just want to get to know somebody again. try to be the person i was a while ago and haven't fully been since. part the reason why i like a public account on bebo, i talk to people I've never met and never will meet. Luna keeps saying we should meet some new emo boys which i find funny because, where we live, there aren't many emos at all. but knowing today's world, they'd be gay. no offence or anything but its quite true. the weather at the moment reflects how most of us feel. but unlike most people, i like the rain. it calms me and its pretty in its own, misunderstood way. i have several things that i do to try and calm myself, usually sit in the rain or draw manga... and eat chocolate. but they've all stopped working recently. and Ive had violent outbursts towards people. like bobby. or this other boy, Oliver. they bring out almost the worst in me.i think I'll end it here or I'll be going on all night.much love to people like me with suckish lives.Au revouir x

Mood: Victimised
Listening to: Bring Me The Horizon

i hate school. now more then ever. I'm suffocating in all the bad things that are going on right now. i just cant take it. the whole day i was told that no one likes me by this utter fuckwit [Bobby.. haha!] i know that's not true and everything but with everything else going on, its just making it worse. no one around me knows the full extent of whats wrong, and neither do i to be honest. all my friends have their own issues, Lilly with losing herself, Luna with going generally insane after her break up with Lloyd where shes depressed and then hyper and Tazz having a boyfriend who disappears all the time and has a psycho ex boyfriend who looks like a pixie. I'm serious. it all wouldn't have affected me as much if it all didn't happen in one go. people are now turning against me because of my ex. apparently I'm the bitch. pfft as if! I'm trying to defend myself. none of these people know about my uncle john or the full impact this has all had on me. i swore to myself that I'd never cut, but I'm attempting it. blunt knife and not pressing hard enough. i have a weird issue with deep cuts, that's why I'm attempting this slowly.

i only feel safe in my head. when someone attempts communication, i have to leave the only place i feel safe. i just need a safety net that i lost a while ago. i want an easy challenge, new people to me are an easy challenge. i just want to get to know somebody again. try to be the person i was a while ago and haven't fully been since. part the reason why i like a public account on bebo, i talk to people I've never met and never will meet. Luna keeps saying we should meet some new emo boys which i find funny because, where we live, there aren't many emos at all. but knowing today's world, they'd be gay. no offence or anything but its quite true.

the weather at the moment reflects how most of us feel. but unlike most people, i like the rain. it calms me and its pretty in its own, misunderstood way.

i have several things that i do to try and calm myself, usually sit in the rain or draw manga... and eat chocolate. but they've all stopped working recently. and Ive had violent outbursts towards people. like bobby. or this other boy, Oliver. they bring out almost the worst in me.

i think I'll end it here or I'll be going on all night.
much love to people like me with suckish lives.
Au revouir x