3: My Parents

Dear Mum and Dad.
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Its taken me so fucking long to understand you both and, honestly, I still dont know where you're coming from half the time. You seem to have faith in me when you're in a good mood but then when you snap you shout about how fucking useless I am.
Mum, I hate our family. I hate spending time with everyone because we cant have a nice conversation, or nice dinner, or even a nice Christmas. No one fucking cares or says thank you when I decide to do something nice like laying the Christmas table, filling and emptying the dish washer, sweeping the floors, cleaning the kitchen. I hardly ever get a thank you. Thats why I do fuck all most of the time because I dont think I should bother if I dont get any recognition for it. I'm not asking for money, honestly I clean downstairs because I cant stand the mess. All I really want is for someone to just say thank you and tell me I've done a good job.
Dad. You're knob most of the time. You forget the dates I'm meant to see you and blame it on me, you pretend everything is fine and dandy. You're a pain in the arse. Its irritating how You always bring your girlfriend when you see me. I like her and everything but she's not my mum, she's not related to me and you're not married. We have a shitty relationship with each other you haven't registered and sometimes I dont want to see Nan or speak to Tina. Sometimes I'd like to just sit down to dinner or something and talk to you. You cant remember anything to do with me these days, like what colleges I've applied too or the courses I want to take... Its not that difficult. I'm you're only child after all.
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Generally, I am glad that you both split up when I was 3. I dont remember it. But I just dont know what its like to have a complete family where your parents are together. I'm jealous of people who got to experience that but I'm glad that I didn't have to go through that trauma as well. I'm also glad that you've both found someone you both really like.
(Although, Mum, your boyfriend is weird and act inappropriately to me and Gran. Please tell him to fuck off.)
I'm happy to see you both happy. However. Mum stop fucking canoodling in front of everyone. Me and Grannie bitch and complain about it. I would never snog Skei in front of all of you, sure I'd kiss him, hold hands or snuggle on the couch but nothing inappropriate.
Grow up Mum.
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Love you're irritated daughter Kodi.
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