updatee :)

RIIIIIGHTYY

well as an update i cant remember if i mentioned the two new room mates i have in my head.
Ana and Psyc. yeahh. little bit about them:

Ana
14 years old
5'5
very thin
light brown hair and brown eyes
full fringe, straight hair.
not the nicest person to come accross

Psyc
16 years old
5'10
size 8 with a DD cup size[weird how i kno that..]
short hair with longish fringe and dyed red
basically me drunk. :L:L

honestly its kinda scary. and im having halusinations >.< stuff like reli big spiders crawling up the walls at night and tall scary men standing over me. at night, youd crap yourself.
just thought id mention that

also unfortunetly developed a need to bleed again :/ i made Skei go into a fit coz iv started cutting again :/ i feel relii bad but its better than killing myself right?

i caught a glimps of my legs the other day in shorts and thought 'NO WAY!' they actually look MUCH thinner than usual. :)

and my grades are still above average :D i plan on showing all the fuckers in my life up.

but i reli need a fag :/ i hav 2 but i dont think i could get away with smelling like them afterwards :/ mehh ill hav to make do.
mental note: meet up with Craig after school again to hav a fag like we did AGES ago <3 loved that day

yes im doing well on the weight front. [wheyheyy!!] 10 stone 13 pounds. hopefully losing more!

this is verrrry scatterbrained i kno >.<
well i think thats it.. ima make myself some healthy hot chocolate :L



bye mah lovers x ;)

Righty Right Right Riiight.

meh, people are bitching about me behind my back about the stupidest things. like my hair. i dyed my hair red but you cant really see it but in the sunlight and some other type of light it glows a really awesome red. now one of my top 5 [King] was bitching about it acording to Bambi [another friend of mine] which is really retarded. can she not say something that pointless to my face? seriously if she had sed it to my face i wouldnt hav given a shit but since she said it behind my back i really dislike her now. T_T
also she was bitching to Kitty about it which makes everything worse. id reeaaalyy like to punch Kitty in the face. trying to take my boyfriend. god damn it. fucking emo-wannabe-scene-BITCH. she wrote a todo list on his arm yesterday...
'to do list.. buy Kitty a giraffe, become a fish doctor' < ahem,, FUCK OFF. i scribbled it out in maths coz im that mean. and i haate her that much.

but hey ho. he swore at me.. like proper swore. yanno and angry swearing at sorta thing. the other day. made me sad. but he was sorry. its coz he hadnt had a fag. [hes quitting.. well cutting down then quitting] aaaaand today me him and Dean got caught off of school premisses. meh dont really care. my mum didnt really give too much of a shit when i told her... ahh well.

Skei is coming over mine on sundayy ^_^ been ages since last time he did. we're gonna watch Naruto ^_^ hes a closet Narutard ^_^ hes actually alot like Naruto :3 i spose im Sasuke coz of my hair. heh heh. he was planning on taking me to London to a posh resterant for Valentines but my mum didnt like the idea so it will probably be in Brightonn.. :) i do love him. even if hes an accidental dick head.

Fecking Diploma Homework is what im doing atm. it sucks. its for tomorrow so i hav to finish it. mehhh! i hate the review process after a project is overr T_T ARRGH

thats about all for todayy my lovess (L)

goodbyee all :) x

'I'm Gonna Break Your Little Heart, Watch You Take The Fall, Laughing All The Way To The Hospital'

Oh My Fucking God.

Okay, yeah yeah i know how much of a whiner I've been and shit like that but i am going to try and look on the bright side of life [oh fuck now if got that song in my head now] some more coz i just really cant be fucked to be depressed all the time. i let loose the people who were making me proper depressed and now I'm moving on! i mean i do have quite a bit to look forward to now, its the summer, I'm going to the London BabyCakes Party in October and hopefully going to see The Mission District at the end of September! just need to ask my mum. i do need to get out more. coz if i don't then i go into and emo whine-fest and then get too lazy to bother. if anyone knows of some good concerts coming up in the UK please tell me, I'd like to see some more :) tahh! I need to find out what happened to my BabyCakes Ticket Though.. I never got it in the post. well maybe I'll get it closer to October... but heyho I'm in a rather good mood. especially for an ill person, haha :) bloody cough!
Hmm I think That's It...
:)
x